Mairi Angus is affectionately known as Ma 100 and is the wild card in the pack. She took up writing eight months ago and wishes she had done it 28 years ago. She does not describe herself as a writer, more a teller of stories. Mairi has an on-going battle with punctuation, grammar and tense which she calls her beasts, but she is determined not to let this barrier get in the way of writing her stories.
The Beasts
The beasts still get at me, I can’t think, my sleep is interrupted, my mind is in turmoil. The fear they instill in me is worse than being stalked on a dark lonely night. At least I know I can knock on the nearest door with a light on, and some kind soul will come to my rescue.
The little curly one hates me the most. It causes me to take a breath, but it never stops still long enough for me to catch it. I peer at the minuscule monsters, trying so hard to rid myself of the fear, but it’s no use. They taunt me, laughing at my confusion. They dance in front of my eyes like a demonic flea circus.
I don’t understand how others can see and destroy the views in front of them. I am left behind because of my fear. I question the shape of the beasts, but it’s as if my comprehension is limited. Others see me as stupid, pathetic, afraid of such tiny monsters, but they don’t see what I see.
All I know is, my past, present and future is held in the hands of these monsters and I don’t now how to change it. I close my eyes and pray that they will do the right thing and leave me in peace. But I shiver, knowing full well they’re too wise for me.
But, defeat these beasts I must for me to move forward. So, once again I collect my thoughts hold my breath and cross my fingers. Butterflies flutter in my tummy, beads of sweat on my neck dampen my hair. My fear on display for all to see, ready for the onslaught of comments about my demons.
One day I will say goodbye to the terrors; punctuation, grammar and viewpoints and then I will relax confident in what I do.
‘I am at war with punctuation, tense and grammar. One day I will defeat the beast…Ma 100′
4 Comments
May 27, 2008 at 8:00 am
Mairi,
I love your new site. Subtle colors, easy to read and some very nice writing.
Good work. i’ll come back if you keep writing and posting.
Your friend,
Chris
September 2, 2008 at 9:24 pm
James was here, lol!
March 24, 2009 at 3:56 pm
Well,
Kilroy was here and he enjoyed your fiction.
Always had a soft spot for the ‘limelight days’, ever since I watched ‘Upstairs-Downstairs’ all those years ago. Where di they go?
Keep on writing please..
See you back on MWC.
Stay Lucky
John
March 24, 2009 at 4:08 pm
Thankyou John
You are very kind. Haven’t heard Kilroy being about for a long time. lol’
Mairi